in a mood for no love`

its been a few years after i broke up with my ex bf.....then after 2 years i decided to go on, move on with life and started all over again.a new one with some one new...but my independent attitude makes me a pushy person and now....feel like im loosing it...talked to my fren,aideel makes me think a lot.a bday present from him a book by dr.hm tuah made me think that love is a feeling a creation dat u cant see it but u feel it...same goes u dun xpect the bell to ring but it just rang...nah...but i know im still young to understand everything but i know there must be something for me from god...n now..im in no mood for love