in between of no one~

lately my housemates keep teeling me how i isolated myself from other world...locked inside da house n keep silent as much as i can....seems its not me at all...the happy go lucky gaal just turn dull...i choosed to be silent n keep my mouth shut..only A know wat i feel...P been too busy as i din pay attention on him..missing B makes the world seems turn upside down...A keep telling me to be positives and wat makes me so angry...i am no luck in love so i need to move on...the funny and hard thing is no one trust me wen i tell them i am single... for my fren L thnx cuz make a new phases......xde bf la baru rock!hahhahha been single again...my 3 years relation turned up single for 2 years.. n my new one month relationship now end after rite the 4th week...n i been single again...erm actually i dun even confirm whether i am single or not cuz B nvr say that we are off...only he need to be alone...so....maybe he want to be single n use the nice words for breakup words...whos know...only god know the reason....n me ....single again

i woke up dis morning~

i woke up dis morning then i realized that my sadness still there...i cant make it away by sleeping...A is rite i always running away...but wat am i supposed to do wen my feeling is something make me uneasy. at 5 am i started to cook something and i did..A keep convinced me that i will learn even tho i need to fail it alot....i started to miss B....i luv him i guess...but if it is a fling or scandal, shud i be too much in pain? i din know the answer..W also want me to know that everything will be ok...N started too felt guilty...only A is my ear..i keep troubling A wif my problems love n life...A, am sorry but u the only one that i nvr keep a secret..life goes on...P still waiting for me..P d guy dat wooing me since a few period...im confused am i make a mistake by choosed B instead of W and P?....tell me pls

in a mood for no love`

its been a few years after i broke up with my ex bf.....then after 2 years i decided to go on, move on with life and started all over again.a new one with some one new...but my independent attitude makes me a pushy person and now....feel like im loosing it...talked to my fren,aideel makes me think a lot.a bday present from him a book by dr.hm tuah made me think that love is a feeling a creation dat u cant see it but u feel it...same goes u dun xpect the bell to ring but it just rang...nah...but i know im still young to understand everything but i know there must be something for me from god...n now..im in no mood for love